Loving someone and to be loved by someone in return is one of the great feeling we can ever experience in our life. It’s like a million volt of current vibrating all over our nerves.
We woke up inspired everyday. We talked to ourselves in the mirror. It’s pretty crazy! Happiness is most common emotions in our lives by that time.
But not all love story is like fairy tales with a happy ending. As I write these thoughts, I am trying to remember those days, so I could make you feel so real about it.
12 years ago, I can still recall how it really senses like when you fell in love for the first time. It’s looks weird. It’s amazing. It’s larger-than-life. I cannot explain how it goes, but to cut a long five year story to short, Lets put it this way,I loved him but he broke me. He screwed on me so many times. He took advantage of my vulnerability. That sucks so incredibly bad. There were good sides and learning about the story. I found out realizing that life is a huge battle. Fight until such time that you can carry on. Only when you became worn down, take a breather and let it pass.
4 years in a scuffle, it’s like a roller coaster ride. There were ups, moments and were down flashes. Until I finally give up. It hurts, It hurt to death. I can’t even stand up. I can’t find the light on my days.Very heavy indeed.
I don’t want to wake up at all. I feel so crazy. I’m getting lost.
But life must go on. It’s not entirely about him.
I have family and friends who rely on my strength. And that’s what kept me going. Listed below were what I did:
- I socialized with friends.
- I made myself busy.
- I talk to my family most of the time.
- I worked hard to death.
- I’ve tried making myself to be a better person.
- I focused on positive things.
- I read books.
- I don’t watch love stories.
- I entertain suitors and go dating.
- I pray a lot. I talked to God most of the time.
And now, here I am, happily in love once more. I am no longer afraid. After 7 years, I can still remember the pain, the broken heart, the saddest part and all the sufferings. But remembering doesn’t mean that I had to endure in the past. For sure, I’m going to use that to build a better future, a better life and a love that will last always and forever.
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